Happy Weekend!

Okay tomorrow is Valentines Day.. It was EXTREMELY hard for me to go pick up a Valentines Day card and some candy for my sweetie knowing I couldn't eat any of it - and on top of that, I was starving because I skipped eating lunch (yes, I know.. I know.. that's whole different paragraph!! BUT, I managed to make it into the store and back out without a drop of candy touching my lips!! I'm getting a little smarter about some things, you see, I picked him up candy that I knew I wouldn't eat.. Whoppers, Non-Perils and Charleston Chews.. YUCK! ;oP

Now about my skipping lunch - which is happening more and more recently because I just don't stop long enough to eat. It's not that I'm not hungry, I am - I just can't bring myself to stop long enough to go heat up what I brought with me and eat. It's a relatively minor task and could take me all of 5 min to run out to the break room - microwave my leftovers - and get back to my desk (I can eat at my desk and work straight through lunch). The hard part is TAKING THE BREAK! I guess there are a couple of reasons - if I work through lunch, I get paid for it. I also feel obligated to keep working (or maybe if I take a break I feel like I'll lose my edge) to get done my stuff and help out others. In a way I see it as a waste of time. The longer I'm away from my desk, the less work I get done. I can't even sit there and do one task - I have to be doing at least two things - that drives me a little crazy that I can't seem to stop it..

So - my hubby thinks that's part of the reason for the (eh hem) very minor weightloss last week. Minor? Shit! It was mini-minor, almost going backwards to gaining!!! Grrrrrrr! Still aggravates me.. Oh yeah, and there's Betty 'brow beating' me for eating too many carbs.. I kid, Betty! I kid! You know I love ya!! :=) She's right, I guess. I need to get more protein and fresh/frozen veggies in my plan. However, for the most part, the carbs that I eat come from fruit, brown rice and plain instant cooked oatmeal so they aren't bad carbs - probably just not balanced out too well. Oh and of course my carb bars - which I ALWAYS depend on when I'm trying to figure out a weightloss plan - they are quick, filling and chocolatey (and that's three big bonuses in my book). Well I have WAY more on my mind but I'm going to cut it short for now.. Ahhhhh - this is kind of therapeutic - just don't hold it agains me later..