Betty's Weigh-In Day

Well... I am back where I started.  Almost exactly the same as the last weight I admitted to on here, nearly two years ago.  I could have lost the majority of this weight in that time.  But I didn't.  So now here I am.

Honestly, I am thankful that it wasn't higher than that.  I was seriously scared it would be.  That's the beauty of being this weight - I never really know for sure what I weigh because the freakin bathroom scale at home doesn't go that high. I joke, but it's not at all funny, I know.

I'm glad Wilma's on board with me.  I have SO far to go.  I have contemplated bariatric surgery often these last few years, but for some reason I just can't quite get to the point of giving in about it.  Whenever I really start thinking about it seriously, I get mad at myself for letting it get to this point and I just know I have it in me to do it on my own.  Everything I have in my life I have gotten because I have worked for it - and a healthy lifestyle and normal weight should not be any different than any other accomplishment.

Weighing in at Weight Watchers was easy enough.  I actually made it about 10 minutes before giving in and peeking at the weight the clerk had recorded.  The meeting, on the other hand, was less than inspirational, for the most part.  First, the leader is older.  Not that there is anything wrong with that - but I would find a younger, more enthusiastic leader a little more motivational.  Second, the leader shared that she lost 30 pounds on Weight Watchers.  You know what I have to say about that.... BIG DEAL.  Now this meeting was not the meeting that I plan to attend on a regular basis, so I will see if the leader at the regular meeting is someone else.  If not, perhaps someone at Weight Watchers can guide me towards a meeting with a leader who I find more of an inspiration.  I would actually love it if they would have someone leading the group that is actually currently going through the program him or herself. And who has a substantial amount to lose.  I just think it would be easier to connect with someone that I felt knew what I am going through.  My last attempt at WW was unsuccessful, and while I know I could sit and make excuses all day long for that, I do know that the leader at those meetings was not someone I looked forward to seeing every week.

So, I didn't plan out tomorrow's meals.  I know what to eat, but I do need to regroup a bit since it's been a long time since I have tried to eat responsibly.  I know the basics... lean protein, lots of vegs, fruits, whole grains, water....